FREE SPIRIT OR FREE IN THE SPIRIT
I've always considered myself a 'free spirit'. In my career planning/assessment class in college, I took a values test and found that I value freedom very highly. I also took the Myers Briggs and discovered that my personality type is "the adventurer".
Ironically, some celebrities that share my personality are Britney Spears and Michael Jackson. Two people that did spontaneously crazy things out of emotional build up.
Like, remember when Britney shaved her head? Well, I used to think she was completely insane but the older I get, and the more I have to become an "adult", the more I feel trapped in a box to the point of wanting to do something like that. No joke. I understand you Britney!!
The only difference is that my crazy spontaneous move would probably have to do with traveling to some far off land and leaving all of my responsibilities behind, rather than going bald.
Although I did randomly bleach/cut off my long hair recently and I must say, it was quite empowering.
Nevertheless, what it comes down to is that I hate staying in one place for long periods of time. I don't like routine or mundane, day to day repetition. I wish I could just being a free artist/traveler/worship leader already and just pick up and go see the world. Unfortunately, it's not that easy.
On Sunday at church, I had a revelation though. I was at a point where I felt like the box I was in kept shrinking around me and I wanted to run far away but then I found the key to freedom. A key that I've always known but simply forgot.
"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom" (2 Corinthains 3:17 ESV)
Wait a second....So if the Spirit is always with me, that means I am always free?
Yes, just ask.
"If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” (Luke 11:13 ESV)
Have I been asking the Holy Spirit to be with me everyday? #convicted
When I ask the Spirit to come, not only will I have freedom, but also the fruit of the Spirit which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, and self control. That's everything I need for the life I dream of, except I can have it right here and right now because I have the Spirit with me at all times.
I truly believe God is trying to teach something very important right now. Not only was this the sermon on Sunday, but it's also the main idea of the book I'm reading called "Wild and Free". The title grabbed my attention (no surprise) and I can already tell that this book is going to change my life.
The intro was about Adam and Eve in the garden. They were completely free, unashamed, and in perfect connection with God. That's how we were originally created to be. No insecurities, expectations or pressures to be a certain way that the world tells us to be. Just free. Free to create, discover, explore, and run wild. Everything I long for in life.
Here's the good news, I can have all of that. I can have it because of Jesus and so can you. He came so that we could be free in the Spirit. That's right, not just 'free spirits' wandering with no direction but 'free in the Spirit' to have power and purpose in this life. I see myself differently now. I am free right now. Yes I will go to work today. Yes it's Monday once again, but this time I am remembering that I am free in the Spirit. I just have to ask and be open to all the gifts He has for me in this season.